Creativity is a strange beast. I always forget parts of the process until it's time for them to happen again. It's like my mind has a series of rooms that lock themselves when I exit and I don't get the key until the next time I need to enter the room.
Actually that's a terrible analogy. But I don't know what's better or how to put it into words so let me tell you a story instead.
I've spent most of the last 6 months pushing hard on various creative projects. My ambition definitely outstripped my energy levels and I was feeling burnt out but I was too terrified to stop and give myself the break I so desperately needed. I could feel how thinly I had stretched myself but I just couldn't seem to get off the treadmill of early mornings and doing even though I was over it.
When I get super exhausted from all the creating, I feel like if I stop I won't ever start again. At the same time, I desperately need a break or I'll go mad. I know that I'm not working at my best or being effective but I just can't seem to stop doing or give myself permission to rest or do something else. What I should have done is read this post I wrote back in March last year on the cyclical nature of creativity and the need for rest and recuperation.
I was feeling that way the other day and I tried to convince myself that it was okay, it would turn out fine. I reminded myself to have faith and trust in the process. I'm not sure if I believed me, but hey, at least I tried!